Tuesday

Well it is Tuesday...you know when I woke up this morning I thought it was Wednesday!!! : ) I don't know why, but I did. Anyway it has gotten really stormy outside and I just love it!!! I'm really weird, I love the rain, and the wind, I love storms!!! They make me feel so alive and in touch with nature. Some people don't like it, but I think it really helps to find the beauty in each change. Yesterday as I was driving home I seen a rainbow. It was so pretty and there it is...just the joy of seeing a rainbow. I would have missed it if I was focused on no liking the weather or complaining about the weather. It made me happy to see it.

I have started a book called "Eat, Pray, Love" it seems to be a good read. Very easy and funny, and honest. I watch Oprah and she was interviewing the author. So I just had to buy it, and so far it is very good. I think I like it so much because I'm on my own journey of discovery and this book is about her journey. I think anytime you are starting to embark on a new phase of discovery you will find something that you can connect to and that will help you down the path. Sometimes you can get discouraged or people will make comments and sabotage you. You have to find the will from with-in to be the person you were meant to be. That is the road that I'm going down, I'm finding the me that I was meant to be. Not everyone is happy with that, but I can't make everyone happy, nor do I want to. I want to be happy.

That is what my mantra is all about. Reminding myself and the universe that I AM WEALTHY. I AM HEALTHY. I LIVE AN ABUNDANT AND JOYFUL LIFE. I know that I am blessed in so many ways, and I do not focus on lack or not having. Because I know that whatever I want and need I very willing receive into my life. What a great way to live, to know that I'm living my best live NOW!!!

More rambling later ~
Jen

FRIDAY~~~~ALMOST

So it is another wonderful Friday and I'm working another event. My job is great for many different reasons, but there are some draw backs. One of them is that I have to work nights and weekends frequently. Which is fine for the most part, but there are times when I like the weekend off. I know I'm very blessed to have a job, not only that but I also enjoy my job. Which a lot of people can't say. I think that part of the reason I love my job so much is that I'm truly grateful and I'm living in the NOW. I try to start each day new and not focus on what happened the day, week or month before. I also forget about work once I leave...I don't want to focus on work on my private times I want to focus on me and what I want to do. I try not to take work home with me as it serves no purpose to help me relax and enjoy my time off. I enjoy my time off and I love spending time with family and friends. I also enjoy spending time with my dog Kodi. He helps to relax me so much. I play with him, the last couple of days he has been sleeping when I get home, so I have beat him to the door!! Which annoys him to no end, my dog has his own personality and it is so fun messing with him. He like to be first at the door, first to enter a room, will run me over to get outside. So I have fun getting somewhere first because he pouts! : ) I know it may be hard to understand but yes my dog pouts!!! It is the funniest thing.

So again I leave you with this mantra ~ I AM WEALTHY. I AM HEALTHY. I LIVE AN ABUNDANT AND JOYFUL LIFE.

More ramblings later ~
Jen

Just Another Day

Well here I am at work and trying to focus on the things I need to do. Do you ever have days that you just can't seem to focus? Well I'm having one of those days...hell it feels like one of those weeks. I have most of my work done and accomplished and now I'm waiting on other people so that I can do more work...CRAZY!!! : ) I'm a very complex person...at least I think so. I can procrastinate in my personal life, but in my professional life I'm all about getting my work done as quickly as possible I don't want someone to think I'm lazy professionally. : ) But when it comes to housework I will take forever!!! : ) But then again I think that is true for most people, who wants to clean a toilet when you can read a book or watch TV or play with the dog/kids, anything but the toilet!!! OK enough about that!!

Well yesterday was my weigh in for Weight Watchers (WW). I lost another 2.4 lbs!!! Woo-hoo!!! So I have lost a total of 17.2 lbs!!! I'm so proud of myself. I really have started to change my thought process, I think that is the biggest thing. You have to want to be more healthier. I don't like being overweight! I don't know anyone who really does honestly like being obese. Yes you have to love yourself, and it is hard when you can't find the right pair of jeans, or the right shirt....or hello the cute shoes you want to wear...in my case it is the boots!!! I so want a pair of black dress boots!!! My calves are too big!!! I can't find them at least not yet!!! They are out there and I will get them in the right time and place for me to get them. So my WW journey continues...I'm getting so much more out of the classes this time then I did the first time, I was not mentally ready for my weight loss. I AM NOW!!! : )

As you have noticed from yesterday's post I have a totally different outlook on life. I live in the NOW!! I don't live in the past and dwell on the crap from the past...it is all just so useless!!! Yes bad things happened and yes I did not have the ideal childhood...but then who does. I'm not going to sit and talk about or think about the past and what could, should, or did not happen. That is the past and it stays in the past. I want to live NOW, and be conscious NOW!! I have really changed my life around and I live in a state of Gratitude!!! I'm so grateful for what I get to experience and how I get to live my life. I enjoy the drive to work...I love seeing the colors of the tree's change and the mist rising out of the hills and trees. I get so much pleasure out of the smallest things...and really living in the state of NOW!!! I can't live in the state of the past or the state of the future...those things don't have any bearing on who I AM NOW!! So for me life is great...and I focus on that!!! I'm not in want, need, or feel that I'm unfilled in anyway!!! : ) I have everything I need and I love who I AM. I shared this yesterday and I will continue to share this with you so that you have the option to change your life!!! I AM WEALTHY. I AM HEALTHY. I LIVE AN ABUNDANT AND JOYFUL LIFE.

I will ramble more later ~
Jenny

Lost

OK well my first blog has been lost...where does this crap go!!! I was doing so good at writing crap down and getting all my thoughts and feelings down and now I can't find it!!!! This only happens to me...I'm sure someone will say user error!!! I would like to know how, if you can explain that to me then I would be very happy.

Anyway I have been rambling on about different things for the past couple of months all of it is about me. : ) About my family, my weight loss journey, my upcoming trip to Ireland, my journey to discover myself, my FM, anything else that pops into my mind as well. I think that having this will help me with this journey called life. I'm a firm believer that we are in the driver seat of our life and that we tell ourselves were we are going and what we will experience. Positive self talk is important, and living in the NOW. I have been reading all sorts of material over the past year and it has really helped me with my journey. I started with The Secret which was mind blowing to me that I could ask for anything I wanted and the universe would bring it too me. I have been doing this now regularly for 6-7 months and it is true. I ask, I'm grateful, I believe and I receive. I have taken it a step further and I have been doing some reading from a online group that I joined, all the books talk about living in the NOW and letting go with preconceived ideas and really live each day to the fullest. I so believe that by living this way I have changed and enriched my life. I have a mantra that I say to myself several times a day. I will share it with you so that you too can start changing your life..."I AM Wealthy, I AM Healthy, I Live an Abundant and Joyful life" by my saying this it has helped my so much. I live in the NOW, everything I want I get, I don't allow doubt into my life. I wish everyone would follow this, I try to live by example and tell everyone this concept...I'm now in the driver seat of my life and it is a wonderful life.

Concerning my Weight Loss journey I'm doing great!!! I have lost 15 lbs and I feel great, I'm fitting into by favorite pair of jeans, I feel the weight just falling off me. : ) I look good, I feel good and I know where I'm going with this. I have told the universe what I want, I'm grateful for my health, I believe that I'm losing weight, I receive my weight loss!!! : ) Live is good!!!

I will ramble more later ~
Jen