October

So it is the beginning of October and I can't believe where the time has gone. 6 month ago I was in Ireland getting lost and having a blast and now I'm back home trying to decide where my life needs to go. I know I'm not happy and I know I need something in my life that makes me happy besides the dog that is. Work is OK if I can just focus on it and not let the crap bother me, but the crap is annoying the hell out of me and so are most of the people I work with. The worst part is I'm scared to make a change and to really examine where I'm at and who I am. I'm thinking more and more of volunteer work or joining an organization that does good deeds and promotes good in the world. Just trying to find one is hard and is that really where I need to be. I guess I should not question it too much and let it come to me. I'm big on things will happen when they need to happen and that we bring all things to us if we focus on bad we will get more bad, if we focus on good we will get more good. I'm just focusing some of my energy and emotions on the crap at work and not the good. I just can't seem to find the good at work, and then I think of crap and it is all bad. I don't know how to change my mind set to focus on positive things happening instead of coming up with all this negative crap all the time. I'm really get sick and tired of it, I know I need to stop the negative crap right when it rear's it's ugly head but I can't seem to do that I just seem to let my mind go there and I need to stop. So as of today that is my mission for the next couple of weeks is to change that habit into something completely different something positive and to really try and figure out what I need to do in my life to make the changes I need to happen.

Well that it all for now I think I have rambled enough for today. :) Jen