October

So it is the beginning of October and I can't believe where the time has gone. 6 month ago I was in Ireland getting lost and having a blast and now I'm back home trying to decide where my life needs to go. I know I'm not happy and I know I need something in my life that makes me happy besides the dog that is. Work is OK if I can just focus on it and not let the crap bother me, but the crap is annoying the hell out of me and so are most of the people I work with. The worst part is I'm scared to make a change and to really examine where I'm at and who I am. I'm thinking more and more of volunteer work or joining an organization that does good deeds and promotes good in the world. Just trying to find one is hard and is that really where I need to be. I guess I should not question it too much and let it come to me. I'm big on things will happen when they need to happen and that we bring all things to us if we focus on bad we will get more bad, if we focus on good we will get more good. I'm just focusing some of my energy and emotions on the crap at work and not the good. I just can't seem to find the good at work, and then I think of crap and it is all bad. I don't know how to change my mind set to focus on positive things happening instead of coming up with all this negative crap all the time. I'm really get sick and tired of it, I know I need to stop the negative crap right when it rear's it's ugly head but I can't seem to do that I just seem to let my mind go there and I need to stop. So as of today that is my mission for the next couple of weeks is to change that habit into something completely different something positive and to really try and figure out what I need to do in my life to make the changes I need to happen.

Well that it all for now I think I have rambled enough for today. :) Jen

More Ramblings

Well today is Sunday and off I go shopping!!! : ) We have two birthday parties this weekend one is 19 and the other is 3. So that should be good fun!!! Yesterday I went to my sisters house had a great time visiting with everyone and laughing. My family can get me laughing as no one else can. LOL We had a great time went out to dinner, B was behaving in a wonderful fashion. All of 2 and the world is not fair. He is so cute!!! I love that little guy. I still can't believe I'm back from Ireland, I so want to go back. It was a great time and I had such a wonderful experience. : ) Now it is back to the grind and I just don't have my usual get up and go!!! It will come back I'm sure!!! : ) At least I hope so, I know I have a great job and work with a bunch of really great people, but I'm like a lot of people where I wish a could work from anywhere in the world and not worry about the money. Because I would seriously work from anywhere, I would be all over the place. It will happen, this I know if I can think I can have it!!! Well that is all for know!!! More of my Ramblings later. : )

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Well It has been a while since I wrote anything. I have done a lot in the last 6 months or so. I went to Ireland for two weeks and had a blast. I'm planning another trip with my family which I'm really excited about. We are going to the beach again. It should be a blast!!! : )

Well I'm done for know...I have been sick for a couple of days and I'm still not up to doing much. : )

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